Young Blades
They were only boys,
young blades, like me,
and just as blunt and unproven,
wanting to show that they could be
sharp and hard and fearsome.
We were all scared of them.
They were a gang,
a known, nameable group,
to be feared and avoided,
and I was not one of them.
Out one evening,
me and a friend,
we turned a corner
and there they were,
gathered round the lamp post
at the end of the street,
slouching together,
a pride of liars.
We turned round.
Something skittered past us.
A knife.
It was just a folded pen knife,
couldn’t have hurt us if it had hit,
but it came with mean intent,
so we ran anyway,
round another corner,
and another. We separated,
me and my friend, but
I heard his feet behind me,
slapping the pavement.
I slowed and stopped.
He wrapped his arms around me
from behind, in relief, so I thought.
I just opened my arms and
broke the grip
and turned around.
It wasn’t my friend,
it was one of them,
an ugly boy with an ugly name.
He smelled of dirt, and something
worse; a lack of care.
The ugly boy looked at me,
saw something I hadn’t realised
until that moment.
I was bigger than him,
stronger than him,
and right in front of him.
He stepped back, sneered,
began walking away,
said something, I don’t know what,
looking at me the whole time,
watching me.
I watched him back
until he was gone,
which is where he stayed
after that day.
I realised then
that he was scared of me,
and that I
wasn’t scared
any more.